…your email was fabulously enlightening and very helpful.  And comforting.  I feel for you and keep thinking of all you’ve endured.  To get your own emails separately from your joint marital email address, you can use something like hotmail.com, or gmail.com.  You can sign up and access them both from any computer, whenever you want and no one has to know.  Our husbands may never understand blogging as therapy, unfortunately.  Hope to hear from you soon!