So in keeping with some of my fellow bloggers like Liz, who are contemplating other jobs and career moves, I have another job I’m mulling over too. Some of you know that I am a research scientist and have been for over 11 years now. At the same place! It’s like my second family. However, I did work at a pharmaceutical company right after college, and really didn’t like it. I stayed there six months and then was offered a positon with my current employer. We’ve been through buying several houses together, a divorce, numerous serious relationships. My daughters entire existence I’ve been with this people. And it’s a stellar job. Downside? It’s one hour from my home. Two hours of commuting daily. And my daughter is an hour away from me during the day. Her dad is in town though for his job, which is why it works ok for us.
I have a job coming up teaching in a Catholic school-chemistry and physics. I went to grad school for a Masters in Education. The only part of that degree I haven’t finished is the student teaching. And I won’t, because I’d have to quit my job while I did it. And that’s just not reasonable to me. However if I take this job, I’ll have a big cut in pay, but it will count as my student teaching and we can push my certification through (NY State is a toughie when it comes to teaching requirements, for those of you who aren’t aware). So, great job, summers and school vacations off, shorter workday, no commute. Drastically lower pay.
Everyone says take it. Our business is doing well and the money isn’t really the issue. However, I have my single mom mentality permanently ingrained. What if this marriage doesn’t work out? What if it’s just me and B again? I can’t support her as I have in the past, with this type of pay cut.
Oh and the kicker-my precious Gram Julia, while in the hospital shortly before dying, said to me (when I contemplated skipping one of my grad school classes to hang with her) “you go be a teacher”. And in a Catholic school…oh Gram would LOVE that.
So why am I so afraid to do this??? I’m afraid to depend on my husband. He says I do way more than my share here and take the job that will make me happiest. But what job IS that?